What To Do???

Sorry pals.. I noe its been a long time since my last update.. But I am jus lazy to do so.. n mayb i dun wish to type anymore..

But recently.. alot of things happening.. but preparation for my bday, uncle's bday, etc keeps me bz and stop thinking of anyth.. Now, when time flown more, secret in my heart is bursting in anytime.. so i drop in here to explode..

In these recent weeks, I am very happy, why? Woman are happy only because of 2 things, they got money to buy branded or they got a better half.. I m not rich, so i belongs to e 2nd reason.. But nt till tat better half stage..

Some of u might noe who is "police".. and i will be toking abt him.......

I dunno y, in e last recent weeks, he had been giving my calls almost every night to chat when he is doing his boring duty at post.. I m very very happy and excited each time i c e familiar no. calling.. n i will pick it up wif my fullest smile and chat wif him for hours.. n i mean HOURS.. sometime giving up my slp.. n i tink its worth it.. becoz its sweet hearing his voice and the chats are nt like e past usual.. mayb tats our true self then trying to 'hide' in e past..

Also, even his off days, he will drop me a sms, asking wat i am doing, etc.. And most happy is i met him @ Heeren by fate.. Once I saw him, i will my heart pumping hard and face blushing red.. It's the 4th time i saw him.....

After tat day, he sms me and he tok abt he knew a gal at boat quay when he went drinking wif frens on sat.. My heart sank to e bottom.. Is it wat I am most afraid happening again?? my heart jus hurts when his topic is abt her.. to make myself feel better i jus crack jokes abt hm n her which doesnt comes true frm my heart..

I did something stupid on tue.. he ask me wat i wan for my bday.. n i requested bouquet of flowers.. i noe he wont gif.. but i jus wan to gif it a try.. I might be taking things for-granted as recently he is nice to me..

Till today he did nt send me a sms o nor call me for a chat.. n i been thinking.. is he on e line wif e gal? is he smsing her? n i jus someone he find when he is only bored..

what shall i do? what shall i think?